i've been meaning to do a journal post on my whole birth process and journey through my first few weeks with a newborn. i know well and good that these memories are worth a lifetime and you rarely remember them well past a couple of years. it'd be something nice to recall at her 12th birthday, maybe. or when i'm having my second. hopefully not till she's in grade school!
so i last left you when she was 30 weeks gestation and looking cute as a button. at 34 weeks, i was diagnosed with PIH. or, pregnancy-induced hypertension. dr j karen of island hospital upgraded me to high risk pregnancy and monitored me on a weekly basis thereafter. i was pretty much asymptomatic throughout though. and i had a famously tiny belly. i only looked suspiciously pregnant when i entered my 6th month and when i was term, i only appeared like i was 6 months along. here's my belly diary...
(to be added later coz livejournal app for iphone is dumb)
the last one was taken at exactly 39 weeks gestation, and she popped the very next day. it was sunday, april 19th 2015 and the day started much like any other. lol. hubby had badminton that morning and had gotten up at about 7 am to shower and get ready. i also stumbled awake and went to prepare a hot chocolate drink as per my norm. i had been off work since 6th april and was basically just a sloth every day 😅
i went to the toilet to relieve my bladder and found that i had bloody show. or actually, pink brown show. prior to this i never ever had any colored discharge (unlike some other women) so this was definitely unusual. but like i said, it wasn't red or abundant, there was no sign of water bag breakage and i wasn't having a single contraction... so i thought okay, maybe this is just the mucus plug and i still got time.
i had a couple of very tolerable contractions the previous day about 30 mins apart and that was it. nothing else. so i thought best to get it checked out. i told hubby we should go to the hospital after he finished his game. he suggested i follow him to his game which i turned down. then suddenly my pink brown show turned to bright red blood.
now i started to freak out a little. i told hubby cannot liao, like this confirm have to go to the hospital asap. so we left the house at about 8 and reached before 8:30 am. i was pushed into the labour suite by 9 am and hooked up to the CTG machine. the nurses wanted to monitor me for contractions and the whole time i was thinking, man are they gonna be laughing when they see there's none and also, am i gonna get charged for this "checkup"?
initially my "contractions" (i'm saying this coz they didn't feel like the horror contraction stories you read about) were like 30 mins apart and only lasted 30 secs maybe. so the nurse was like, most probably you have to go home today but we'll continue to monitor and see. half an hour later they were coming every 10 mins and felt like minor period pains. the nurse checked me and i was a pitiful 1 cm dilated. medical term: totally not in labor. but the nurse decided to call up and inform my gynae dr karen who was about to come for rounds so she said she'll come take a look at me. by the time dr karen arrived it was about 10 am maybe, and it was as if my uterus or my baby was super excited to see her or something (i know right, wtf)... suddenly my contractions became 5 mins apart. which is a sign of active labor. dr karen checked me and i was 3 cm dilated now. so she then asked me, do you want to progress your labor and have the baby today? to which i said yes and also get me an epidural quick!
so she broke my water bag (in my opinion this procedure was the most painful of the day?), i had the funky warm water gushing out feeling which was totally funky. then soon after a young anesthetist came in and helped me get my epidural set up. it was nice 😌 and i only have positive things to say about him and the epidural. totally painless during insertion except for the initial needle prick which was really like i said less painful than my water bag breaking. it was tingly and cold but in his defense the room really was freezing.
shortly after the meds went in, i felt numbness over my left leg. like serious cannot feel my leg stuff. my right leg still got feeling and then when my contractions got stronger i felt it on my right side. so the 3cm progressed to 5cm which progressed to 7cm by noon. it was all happening very fast. suddenly got stall a bit, btwn noon and 3pm only dilate additional 1cm. grand total 8cm. i was getting impatient, my epidural also doesn't seem to be working on the right side so i requested for a top up bolus. they gave, and instantly i was in heaven. no clue when my contractions were, no clue when they were checking my dilation. etc.
at 4pm, dr karen gloved up to check me and said okay our friend is at the door. i'm like wtf she is? lolol. she then said it's time! all this time i'm like omgomgomg it's time. and they put my legs up in stirrups and i started... shivering. shaking. chattering. in fear. lol. i'm like oh shit i can't do this. haha. the nurse must be like wtf this girl worst is over liao only suddenly cannot do this. but you must understand, the 8? hours i was in so called labor i didn't feel much. i was enjoying tea cakes with milo and watching x-men marathon! it was not the terrible nightmare i was expecting (and dreading) for the better part of 9 months...
for the record, i pushed a grand total of THREE times. clap clap. lol, not. poor baby fell into bradycardia when i pushed (probably coz i suck at pushing and i was holding my breath and suffocating her 😔) and the dr said she had to get the baby out asap so they used a vacuum. she was out really quick, 5 minutes tops of being stuck in my err, down there? lol. no tears on expulsion but after some suctioning, she was crying healthily! and the nurse shoved her into my arms and said hold your baby. i was like WTF i don't know how?! but yeah, no time to learn coz the next second there she was fresh from the womb and needing a hug. pretty amazing feeling holding your baby for the first time. after 9 months holding her in my tummy.
she was born at at exactly 4:24 pm on sunday the 19th of april 2015. length 52 cm, head circumference 30 cm, weight 3.15 kg. marissa mei 😍
living with a newborn story to be continued...